My unreliable trust source

‘I will put my trust in you alone and I will not be shaken’. This is part of the bridge of a worship song I really love (Build My life by Housefires). I always sing this part of the song with so much passion. However, while it is easy to sing and talk about trusting God, trusting Him in reality is a different ball game altogether.

It took a couple of rough situations to show me that although I say I trust God always and in all things, my actions prove otherwise when the going gets tough sometimes.

What I realised is that my trust is largely centred in myself and my abilities – I am my unreliable trust source. I rely on myself more times than I do on God. When I feel like I have the strength to push through stuff, then I’m great and very motivated but when my strength fails me due to my own human limitations, I don’t always trust that God’s strength is what I need to sustain me and keep me going. This results in me living in cycles of fear and overthinking my life.

‘My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever’ – Psalm 73:26. This is a verse I know and love but somehow, I don’t always apply it when I need it the most.

It is not enough to trust God in some things, I must trust Him wholeheartedly and in all things. I need to put my trust in the solid rock that is Christ. Everything else is sinking sand (Matthew 7:24-27). Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever (Hebrews 13:8). Though my life circumstances may change, His word remains the same and stands forever (Isaiah 40:8). His word is not subject to how I may be feeling at a particular moment. His word is always true – not only when my mind says so. So I must choose to believe it and agree with what God says about me.

‘When I try, I fail. When I trust, He succeeds’.

– Corrie ten Boom

Trusting in God means I will spend less time doubting myself because its only His voice that matters. Trusting in Him means that I will still hold onto His word even when life doesn’t seem to make sense. ‘Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding’ (Proverbs 3:5).

 ‘It’s not my ability, but my response to God’s ability that counts’.

  – Corrie ten Boom

Psalm 20:7 – ‘Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of our Lord’.